What's New Pussycat *k.d.lang*

One day at a time

Song below sort of suits my mood of late!! everything seems to be just to hard. (I'm so fed up)

Cristy Lane - One Day At A Time

Persian Kitten "Paper Planes" MIA

scooter my baby!!

Amazin Grass Kevin ''Bloody'' Wilson

My MENOPAUSE

I know that am different now

I know I'm not the same

There is a demon in my mouth

That makes me act insane.....

I feel so hot sweaty now

My mind is full of rage

The loved ones who are around me

I hope that they do stay

But if I was dealing with me

I'd surely run away

I'm on a roller coaster

It sends me up and down

How can I go from laughing?

To crying on the ground

It happens in an instant

From happy to distraught

I think to every girly

This messssge should be taught

Don't ever be complacent

And treat life with contemt

Cherish every moment

Every single one of them

One day it will descend on you

From somewhere out of hell

You'll think the maddest witch on earth

has blessed you with her spell

Life is not a mistery

It neither is a game

For once this happens to you

You'll never be the same

So how sorry can I be?

It's hormones it's not me

So don't you worry or criticise me

You're not being told lies

This is my existance

A strange and manic place

I do not mean to hurt you

Just don't get in my face

It's strange to feel anger

It's weird to feel rage

I'm on the herbs and calcium

I'll be on them for age

And everything's so black and white

there is no middle ground

My emotions are so up and down

They make my head go round and round

It's so damned HOT throught the night

Central heating I don't need

I know what will calm me down

I think I'll smoke some weed

My memory has abandoned me

My balance, not too good

Restful sleep is in the past

Anyone not happy can kiss my arse!!!

So if you should come across me

Crying like a buffoon

It won't be long before I start

laughing like a loon

So there you go, this is my lot

Do I like it? Not a lot

But this is it, another night

I'm sure everything will be alright

Cath xxxx

A couple of pics from work.....rest were shockers. lol

Up Date

Well here goes stopped work about six weeks ago and not in any hurry to go back. I have had a job offer!!... of which I declined as it was full time (Operations Manager) with a new company and I was recommended by my former boss!! that's a real confidence builder because believe me he does not do things like that!

Mum is not coping very well at all.....she is forgetting and misplacing things..... Christmas eve she had another bad turn so had to call for an ambulance! still no answerer's from the hospital.....I'm starting to think maybe she is attention seeking!!! I know it seems an awful thing to say but she is lonely......and I have to be more patient with her found myself getting snarly with her yesterday and I can't do that she deserves better from me......

Rob is fine he hates his job but at his age there's nothing out there......so we are tossing a few idea's about and hoping to come up with something that will be good for both of us........

Our Christmas was wonderful all the family was together lots of laughing drinking and eating.....I actually cooked this year...I was inspired by my friend and it all went down a treat even my gingerbread men and rum balls....thanks Chelle.

I was going to scrap today but just can't be bothered so I've watched a few movies and slothed in the spa on and off and it's been very nice indeed!!!!lol