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Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Friday, January 22, 2010
Tuesday, January 05, 2010
My MENOPAUSE
I know that am different now
I know I'm not the same
There is a demon in my mouth
That makes me act insane.....
I feel so hot sweaty now
My mind is full of rage
The loved ones who are around me
I hope that they do stay
But if I was dealing with me
I'd surely run away
I'm on a roller coaster
It sends me up and down
How can I go from laughing?
To crying on the ground
It happens in an instant
From happy to distraught
I think to every girly
This messssge should be taught
Don't ever be complacent
And treat life with contemt
Cherish every moment
Every single one of them
One day it will descend on you
From somewhere out of hell
You'll think the maddest witch on earth
has blessed you with her spell
Life is not a mistery
It neither is a game
For once this happens to you
You'll never be the same
So how sorry can I be?
It's hormones it's not me
So don't you worry or criticise me
You're not being told lies
This is my existance
A strange and manic place
I do not mean to hurt you
Just don't get in my face
It's strange to feel anger
It's weird to feel rage
I'm on the herbs and calcium
I'll be on them for age
And everything's so black and white
there is no middle ground
My emotions are so up and down
They make my head go round and round
It's so damned HOT throught the night
Central heating I don't need
I know what will calm me down
I think I'll smoke some weed
My memory has abandoned me
My balance, not too good
Restful sleep is in the past
Anyone not happy can kiss my arse!!!
So if you should come across me
Crying like a buffoon
It won't be long before I start
laughing like a loon
So there you go, this is my lot
Do I like it? Not a lot
But this is it, another night
I'm sure everything will be alright
Cath xxxx
Monday, December 28, 2009
Up Date
Well here goes stopped work about six weeks ago and not in any hurry to go back. I have had a job offer!!... of which I declined as it was full time (Operations Manager) with a new company and I was recommended by my former boss!! that's a real confidence builder because believe me he does not do things like that!
Mum is not coping very well at all.....she is forgetting and misplacing things..... Christmas eve she had another bad turn so had to call for an ambulance! still no answerer's from the hospital.....I'm starting to think maybe she is attention seeking!!! I know it seems an awful thing to say but she is lonely......and I have to be more patient with her found myself getting snarly with her yesterday and I can't do that she deserves better from me......
Rob is fine he hates his job but at his age there's nothing out there......so we are tossing a few idea's about and hoping to come up with something that will be good for both of us........
Our Christmas was wonderful all the family was together lots of laughing drinking and eating.....I actually cooked this year...I was inspired by my friend and it all went down a treat even my gingerbread men and rum balls....thanks Chelle.
I was going to scrap today but just can't be bothered so I've watched a few movies and slothed in the spa on and off and it's been very nice indeed!!!!lol
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
It's been a horrid few weeks and I'm so fucking fed up!!seems I fuck up a few times and everyone comes down on me like a tone of shit!!!!!! hey I'm not perfect I make mistakes.. I'm so tired I'm over it..... so if your reading this thinking what a stupid bitch I am well fuck off your not my friend.....mmmmm do I feel any better for say that YES I do............................................
and if your trying to work out what the fuck is she on about??? take a look at the utube video above might explain how I'm feeling at this time
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